btw, 7 July 2008 marks my 1st advanced theory test and i've PASSED it!! Woohoo.. basic 1st test, final 1st test.. i hope that it'll also goes to my practical test too.. hehe* i dunno wat i gonna do if i have to repeat again! CHOI*** no way, i'm not gg to spend anymore $$ on my this driving.. its making sick.. no time no money how to keep on paying.. now so expensive! $71.69 for non peak timing.. tell me ex not la.. 2 hours.. faint!
*pray i pass la*
=]
chimps birthday's up, and he did enjoyed himselfwith his frenz at phuture.. thanks papa for helping too.. f.j and steven and rundoll for joining.. and of coz dats y i'm happy i knew jasline.. pretty girl.. =] she accompanied me when my dat idert actually left me sitting there.. entertaining myself.. thank you! *sarcastic smile* wahahaha*
well.. i'm bored at work.. thats y i am typing all this.. hehe* love ya all. muackiez*
well, to tell you the truth.. i was rather busy with events, driving theory practices and i'm happy of 1 thing.. =] i managed to pass my basic theory test with just 1 attempt and am the 1st to go out of the test room.. haha*.. wasn't really confident.. was nervous breakdown inside.. everyone was so stressed.. but glad most of the people sitting beside me also passed.. =]..
spent like $500plus on my finals and practical lessons.. gone.. the money just gone..
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well, as a said again.. i felt hurt.. really hurt.. by guys now.. u know something.. have you ever come across anyone... :
*tells you about their ex when you're offically their bf/gf?
*tells you how they treated them and how impt they are to him/her?
*flirt with someone whom you know esp when you already ARE his gf /her bf?
*ask you to promise him/her that YOU WILL FORGET WHAT he/she did?
and.. when u cant.. he/she will put the blame on you for breaking the promise..
tell me guys... can you all tolerate this person?
Is not that i promised and i broke that promise.. i felt so deeply hurt.. but tell me, wat can i do??
have given him a chance..it may be the past.. but, can i really forget what you did?
*IMAGINE*
you took a knife and stabbed me real hard a few times and expecting me to forget you ever stabbed me before, and when i recall those painful things you've done, i bring up what you've done, not bcoz i want to warn you, but to let you know you shld treat me better and love me well.
You put the blame on me for bringing up the past and push the blame all on me. The hurt was doubled! I felt so horribly sad. Am i wrong to tell you that i missed you so much? Am i wrong to request a warm hug from you? Am i wrong to tell you how i felt when the fact is i want to be near and close to you??
And when you did hugged me after i requested, what i had was the most :( hug i've ever had in my life. THE VERY 1ST TIME i've felt i'm not close to you at all. Dont put the blame on me saying its coz of me that's why you don't hug me. well, though you really did out the blame on me, you should really find out why..
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for this whole week, i've been so emotional that my few msges to you all was about i'm thinking of you, i love you, i miss you and all my feelings. i've even asked , am i the only girl makes you want to spend the rest of your life with, and am i the only girl you loves the most?
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you'll never feel the hurt and sadness which i've cried the whole last night.
The matter of fact is that, you heard me crying so badly, but you carried on the blaming game and it makes me made up my mind, i cant carry on being like this.
I've been trying my very best to be the best girl for you, but you've pushed me out of your life.
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i've been once hurt by someone i loved before, i told you before that if you'll ever hurt me like how it happened before, i will never commit. but i'm sucha fool to believe that you'll not hurt me. But the fact is You are the One who HURT me the most, The person who made me cried so much within a year!!
So, tell me, how can i forget those painful things?
If i'm really not worthy and am a fucked up girlfriend for this going 1 year r/s, den i guess i've to make a choice to leave you. leave you so you can be happy and find someone so much better than me.
For me,
i don't think i wanna commit into any r/s now. its really hurtful when you love the person so much but the person just hurt you back double. like i'm risking my love to get hurt from you.
but i shld thank debra and cindy and of coz, someone for being there when i needed a listening ear. =] friends always sweeties..
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i really miss someone dat make a big impact in my life.. u noe who u r.. i've been trying to contact u.. u noe dat i care.. i dun wanna lead u on oso.. i really hope we can be best frens.. i dunno if u might think its difficult..
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work has been kinda flex for me.. and my working hours r kinda short and even if at times needa O.T, we're paid for that which i damn happy.. better do more O.T den i got more pay.. haha*really hope my work will get better.. learn more new things n RUN... haha*..
=]
a day out with you...
playing a fool.. wahahha..
this is my blog.. i can write whatever i wan.. so.. fuck off if u cant stand wat i'm writing..
muahahhaha*
it sucha boring day!!
lifes in atos is damn sianz..once i reach studio punch in.. my mind was thinking of what to have for breaktime.. haha.. den after i came back from break.. den my mind thinks of e time which i can go change n go home.. my life.. my routine.. cool rite.. haha* kinda bored at work.. i need to get a life man... i wanna go out and enjoy life!! FUCK!!
**really touched by someone**
anyway, has been really close with my darling girl cindy.. lately been not in e mood so she has been there for me and of coz.. i'm there for her... rem that mac breakfast at 4am at AMK!! dats so crazy.. gosh.. i cant stand MAC anymore.. coz today.. i had MAC FOR 2 MEALS!!!!
hope dat black chicken in studio wont QUACK anymore.... did i say QUACK? haha* Coz i think she quack more den she croack man.. damn her... picking fight and bitching ard... f***!! oops*...
-------i just want my bloody PROMOTION LA---------
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p.s: i'm happy~
anyway, i'm looking forward to this coming saturday coz able to c my cindy girlie n debra girlie.. i miss them so much.. and i wish you come too.. =].. but.. haiz..
**i'm totally broke this month.. i dun have enough cash to spare.. and i needa be thrifty now.. guess dats e end of my.......SHOPPING DAYS!!... wahahahhah*..
[Wed] had our trainings at office today.. peter was nice to get us food pizza and kfc.. was playing and having fun.. and some ppl just cant stand us.. coz we were having food and all.. wahahha* but this is e time we, make up dept can get together.. taking pics and all.. damn happy.. went back to studio after so long hours den met up with honey and his fren go watch ocean thirteen.. missed e 1st 10min of it.. den we had "so-called" dinner at Indulgence at basement.. the prawny damn nice.. den honey sent us back home.. =] glad to c u today.. but was really sad u lied to me..
-----why am i feeling hurt inside?------
